This was going to be my answer, so I’m replying to your comment in solidarity.

I wish I could say I believe things will get better for me if I just persevere, but I don’t think I do. As long as I’m here though, there is a non-zero hope that someday, I’ll be able to live and not just survive. I hope the same for you too.

A worthy achievement in and of itself. Keep it up, I believe in you!