Fuck. Was I always supposed to be able to get to sleep inside of ten minutes? What do you mean my attention is supposed to be like a searchlight that follows my eyes, and I’m not supposed to look through things? Why are all these objects in a pile distinct entities? I thought I had to use the ‘search’ function to return random loot from the pile? Why aren’t these random background noises filling me with a steady, seething rage?

  • Max-P@lemmy.max-p.meEnglish
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    8 days ago

    I had that pretty well managed in the end. Even when it all works correctly it’s just not like the first time where you feel superhuman and knock down 2 weeks of chores in a day. The body readjusts and it settles closer to a neurotypical focus.

    I’m talking about the very first time in particular, when you feel clarity for the first time and feel limitless. It’s not like you lose the focus, but the euphoria that makes you feel like you can do everything fades away. It can give the impression the ADHD is gone, but you still need to stay organized, eat and sleep well to not come crashing down. And also not overcommit, it’s easy to run straight into burnout because you can easily pull all nighters studying for the first couple days.