Let it all out. Be a storm

      • Scribbd@feddit.nl
        link
        fedilink
        arrow-up
        1
        ·
        1 year ago

        I do too. It just feels like that a bunch psychopaths hold a lot of power that is keeping us from progressing.

        All that money, hoarded like dragons, seen as a high score to beat …

    • Simmy@feddit.uk
      link
      fedilink
      arrow-up
      1
      ·
      1 year ago

      I do give a shit at least, loads do. Capitalism is cancer, people who support it works for them because they’ve never suffered or cared for anyone but themselves.

    • solstice@lemmy.world
      link
      fedilink
      arrow-up
      0
      arrow-down
      1
      ·
      1 year ago

      It was great for a while, lifted billions out of poverty, gave us cures to diseases, air conditioning, internet, etc. But I definitely feel like we need to rethink it now. We need to protect the institutions that allow for innovation, entrepreneurialism, and capitalism, yes, because innovation is essential. But we also need to figure out how to help the tens of millions of people capitalism is leaving in the dust. Idk how to do that though.

  • ThatWeirdGuy1001@sh.itjust.works
    link
    fedilink
    arrow-up
    3
    ·
    1 year ago

    I’ve completely given up on finding someone to spend my life with. I’m 27m and I have nothing to offer outside of love. Every girl I’m even slightly attracted to already has a boyfriend. I’m not unattractive but I have resting bitch face and I’m intimidating. I’ve lived my whole life with people being afraid of me which fuels my need for companionship. I know I’m not owed anything from anyone but that doesn’t mean that it doesn’t still hurt.

    Anymore I’ve just accepted that I’m going to die alone because I’m only going to be wanted for what I can provide when I just want to be fucking loved. My own family doesn’t even love me. All they can talk about is how I’m not good enough or I’m not applying myself correctly.

    I hate being a man…

    • Shyder @lemmy.fmhy.ml
      link
      fedilink
      arrow-up
      2
      ·
      1 year ago

      I feel you, man.

      I’m 29 and in your same exact situation. I’m constantly reminded that I’m alone and the world isn’t made for single men. The harder I try the stronger the depression hits back since all my efforts are meaningless. And each time I talk to someone about it I just get the most cliche responses.

      I’ve just completely given up on love and accepted that I’ll be alone the rest of my life. Since it looks like it won’t be better, at least I don’t want it to be worse…

  • CreamDrippinHoles@lemmy.world
    link
    fedilink
    arrow-up
    3
    ·
    1 year ago

    I have to take care of a 3 year old with pink eye giving her antibiotic eye drops 4 times a day for a week. It’s like wrangling a greased screaming pig. She doesn’t sleep though the night from the coughing, so i dont sleep through the night. I’m all alone while my spouse is on a work trip for 2 weeks, so he gets to miss out on all of this start to finish! No daycare or taekwondo so I can get a break! No family or support! All me all alone with a shit eyed toddler and no sleep for 2 weeks straight. That’s on top of all the other agonizing responsibilities haunting me every day. I’m so tired, 10 days left…

  • JWBananas@kbin.social
    link
    fedilink
    arrow-up
    2
    ·
    1 year ago

    The entirety of the first few pages of my subscription feed are all posts about Sync for Reddit and about the Logitech controller used in the submersible.

    The threadiverse has gaping fundamental flaws in its implementation. It will of course get better over time. But damn. This isn’t great.

  • archomrade [he/him]@midwest.social
    link
    fedilink
    arrow-up
    2
    ·
    1 year ago

    I’ve been trying to get assessed for ADHD for almost a month now, and the therapist i’ve been trying to schedule with has been dragging their feet for WEEKS.

    Both my brother and father have ADHD, my brother was diagnosed when he was a teenager but my dad was diagnosed in his 50s (I am 30). I work from home, which works great and I have no regrets, but when I get distracted, i get distracted HARD. I am constantly getting up, I have about 60 tabs open on multiple monitors, about every 30 seconds I think “I should look at xy or z” and open a new tab. When i’m not working, I have to have 2 or 3 things on at a time (read social media app redacted, have a tv show on, play with my dog, ect), and I have constant decision block in choosing how to spend my free time. It’s getting to the point where I’m up until 2am or worse towards the end of every deadline. I have a bunch of side projects I really want to dig into, but I can’t seem to maintain focus on any of them.

    My insurance covers the costs of therapy but only within network, so I feel a little hamstrung to use this therapist because they’re the closest to me and have great reviews and seem to have an approach I would appreciate, but JESUS CHRIST just respond to my fucking emails! To add to the stress, I feel very self conscious of the perception I might be fishing for drugs, and ever time I send a follow up email i feel like i’m making it look like I don’t really need help.

    I feel like i’m failing my wife, and my employer, and my friends, and I just want some help so I can get my life a little more in control. It’s exhausting.

  • Banana@sh.itjust.works
    link
    fedilink
    arrow-up
    2
    ·
    edit-2
    1 year ago

    I am so angry. I am so sick and tired of just stating my experiences as a woman and having people who are not women straight up tell me that I’m wrong. About my own life experiences. It’s fucking exhausting to be surrounded on all sides by bad faith actors, knowing full well that you won’t get through to them, and feeling defeated, like the world is going backwards and you can feel your rights being torn away from you bit by bit, trying desperately to stand up for yourself and having any words you say fall on deaf ears. I’m so sick of not being listened to. I’m so sick of not being believed. I am so fucking sick of not being respected. I just want to be treated like a human and not be criticised for literally just fucking existing.

    I’m so done.

    • ComatoseSquirrel@lemmy.ml
      link
      fedilink
      arrow-up
      3
      ·
      1 year ago

      I’m sorry you have to deal with that. I hate dealing with people enough as a man. I can’t imagine how frustrating it must be to deal with all the bullshit you are stuck with, having your opinions and experiences dismissed, etc. I hope things improve for you (and all women), but it looks like it’ll get worse before it (hopefully) gets better.

      • Banana@sh.itjust.works
        link
        fedilink
        arrow-up
        0
        ·
        1 year ago

        I really appreciate your comment more than you know. Just having a guy read what I wrote there and not only recognize it, but believe it and validate it means so, so much.

        I’m lucky in that I have some close male friends probably a lot like you who are willing to listen and are actively improving themselves and I am so very thankful for that.

    • limeaide@lemmy.ml
      link
      fedilink
      English
      arrow-up
      1
      ·
      edit-2
      1 year ago

      I’m not a woman, but I am a minority living in a racist part of the USA, and I kinda know what you’re talking about. It’s really hard. I sometimes feel crazy because people don’t believe me.

      I constantly have to play this game of, “are they being rude, do they not like me, or are they being racist?” I feel gaslighted all the time. I feel lesser and it’s tiring having to be who I am. Even people who think they are being kind are assholes. Telling me that I’m “not like the others” is such an insult to my people. “The others” are my friends and family. They are not “others” they are people to me.

      I am sorry you are going through this. Your voice matters and is valid

      Edit: Sorry for attaching my venting to yours. Pretty selfish of me now looking back

      • Banana@sh.itjust.works
        link
        fedilink
        English
        arrow-up
        1
        ·
        1 year ago

        Oh gosh I cant even imagine dealing with all the racist little micro aggressions you have to deal with every day. Also don’t feel bad for venting, you were just trying to relate, and I’m autistic so I relate in a very similar way. I feel for you too and I’m glad someone understands. ❤

  • MermaidsGarden@kbin.social
    link
    fedilink
    arrow-up
    2
    ·
    1 year ago

    I’m lonely. I broke up with my partner Valentine’s Day before last (found out she was cheating on me!). Turned 30 late last year, I work from home, and I’m not super outgoing y’know? I haven’t tried online dating since 2017 prior to this and it just sucks. It’s awful. It’s so hard to get a sense of a person on there so it ends up not being very successful. I’m sick of being in my apartment like fucking Rapunzel in the tower.

  • saplyng@kbin.social
    link
    fedilink
    arrow-up
    2
    ·
    1 year ago

    I watched my grandfather die last night after months of him battling ALS. I’ve already accepted his death years ago and I know he’s at peace now so it’s okay.

    But the fact I can’t explain to my dog that she should stop looking for him and waiting for him to walk through the door tears me up inside.

  • BiggestBulb@kbin.social
    link
    fedilink
    arrow-up
    2
    ·
    1 year ago

    I’m sick and tired of working for other people. Having to take PTO to do literally anything you want to do on a weekday is so fucked, and I’m one of the lucky people (who works PST while in EST). Corporate policies and politics truly do run rampant through every company, and I just need to keep working on products until one becomes sustainable long-term.

    Feel like that’s the key to financial and physical freedom - making the next big thing, then getting it to a solid state and just doing gradual improvements. Don’t pull a spez, don’t piss people off and don’t add too many new features after a while or you’ll kill what you have. And for the love of GOD, don’t go public.

    IPO’ing and going public are what kill companies with great things running for them, simply due to the “keep growing every day until the company inevitably collapses” mindset.

  • PerogiBoi@lemmy.ca
    link
    fedilink
    arrow-up
    1
    ·
    1 year ago

    My manager is in meetings all the time but has a big ego so they have had no time to view my work but they ABSOLUTELY insist that they know exactly what I’ve done and that it needs to be better.

    Bitch all the things he’s complaining about I’ve already done but it’s impossible to get a word in.

  • User Deleted@lemmy.dbzer0.com
    link
    fedilink
    arrow-up
    1
    ·
    1 year ago

    Well you see I just found the fediverse and everything seemed fine, then you get issues with the front page not updating, and deleted comments don’t federate and user display names and profile descriptions doesn’t update and um… its just annoying. Not anyone’s fault, developing code is hard, I know, but this is a post about venting so…

    And real life is just not something I’d even wanna begin talking about, it’d would be 5 more paragraphs of stuff no one wants to read.

  • BuddhaBeettle@kbin.social
    link
    fedilink
    arrow-up
    1
    ·
    1 year ago

    I don’t know what the heck to do with my life.
    I should be happy I finished my major but Im not, Ive been depressed and confused ever since.
    It seems like most of the “typical career paths” for my profession are not for me and my attempts to do something a bit different are met with really strange looks from my peers, my friends, my family and my coworkers.

    • Ni@kbin.social
      link
      fedilink
      arrow-up
      1
      ·
      1 year ago

      I think a lot of people feel lost after university, I know I did. Also very few people I know got to their careers using a neat path, a lot of career paths look like chaos. I also went down an unconventional, difficult path after university, as nothing else seemed to fit. I think you just have to do what is best for you and know it’ll work out in the end.

  • RandomStickman@kbin.social
    link
    fedilink
    arrow-up
    1
    ·
    1 year ago

    I have no energy to do the things I want to do and my parents would pull the “I worked full time and got a masters”. Like yeah, of course I appreciate their sacrifice but damn.

    Every weekend I stay up trying to recoup some time to do the things I want but I end up just feeling more tired.

    Mostly unrelated but also I feel like I’m living half a step detached from society. I am grateful for my SO who mostly get me at least.

    • BuddhaBeettle@kbin.social
      link
      fedilink
      arrow-up
      0
      ·
      1 year ago

      Sounds like burnout.
      Don’t have any advice cause Im not doing so great myself, but maybe set some small goals for yourself that look more achieaveable and enjoyable. Set a few hours to rest and do whatever without needing to feel productive, set some days to go out and do something different, some museum you never visited, or if there is some kind of event in your city like live music or whatever. Some times it will not be your thing, other times you may discover something new you like, at any case it gives you things to talk about and discuss with your SO and peers.

      • RandomStickman@kbin.social
        link
        fedilink
        arrow-up
        1
        ·
        1 year ago

        I always thought it’s run of the mill depression and never considered burn out. Maybe there’s something more specific I can do about it.

        Hope things work out with you as well.

  • Cargon@lemmy.ml
    link
    fedilink
    arrow-up
    1
    ·
    1 year ago

    I’ve had it with these motherfucking snakes on this motherfucking plane!

  • Jojo-Mcfrost572@kbin.social
    link
    fedilink
    arrow-up
    1
    ·
    1 year ago

    My rant is that I love in an existential crisis.
    I know the world sucks. I know why the world sucks and I think I have solutions to some of those issues. However how can I act upon them.

    I’m forever flip flopping on leaving everything behind and living as a nomad in a cave or trying to get into office to right the wrongs of this world.

    I’d love to leave a legacy of actually doing something worthwhile with my life as most lives are pointless.
    We are nothing. We live we die and Majority of us will destroy more than we will ever create.

    Nothing I do or most do matters. I could due tomorrow and my existence would be a footnote in an obituary. With that most things people do don’t impact on the greater humanity.

    Yet we have capacity to truly be remarkable. But to do that we need to take risks. Risks that would ultimately force us into something we do t actually want to do. Risks that would be life altering and destroy the current east life we live.
    .
    Simple question regarding bringing a child into this life. Knowing they will have a worse life than us and forcing them to exist what be a form of torture.

    Hopefully decisions will be made by fate and I won’t need to torture myself until something snubs me out. Could I make a difference it will I be forgettable like everyone else