Hello, I am new here.
I am undiagnosed but have been suggested as probably being on the spectrum by my therapist. So I thought maybe this could be a good place to explore this issue I’ve noticed recently.
I mean stuff like personal appearance? It’s fine, nobody will say anything negative and I know that, but thinking about changing my beard style or removing it all together or I’m a little bored with some of my clothing. But thinking about doing something about it, I just know everyone will have to address it and ask the same questions or make the same comments about it and, I don’t know, like feel mentally exhausted just thinking about it.
Does anyone else experience this? It feels incredibly silly and annoying.
All the time. I’ve worn the same style of clothing (all the same color, same style of pants, variable T-shirt to avoid questions about if I’ve done laundry, specific overshirt) and have kept the same hair/facial hair for most of my life. I’ve thought about wearing another color, but someone would say something and I know I’d get flustered or withdrawn, which would draw more attention.
Social lunches are the worst, especially business lunches. I hate eating in front of other people, but have to force myself to or they’ll ask me why I’m not eating. Then I think am I eating too much and not engaging with the other people? Do they want me to be doing that or are they going to ask me why I’m being so quiet? Do they expect me to comment on the food? Now that I’m thinking about what I’m doing have I started chewing weird? Eventually I’m just looking around like a cornered chipmunk between twitchy nibbles of food, which…doesn’t help. Thankfully my friends all know my discomforts by now, so they don’t care if I scarf food in another room and come back, and the pandemic made business lunches stop for the most part.