I’m still annoyed there are few geology MOOCs around. I can take sixteen thousand courses on Python but I still don’t know the difference between dirt and soil 😤

“Disobeying a ZeniMax employee” being apparently some kind of crime gives me a sudden, near-desperate urge to disobey a ZeniMax employee.

…What? Have the Rs (pronounced “arse,” I guess) given up on pretending to be at all capable of reason? What even… ugh. 🤷 🤦

I don’t really have a clear idea of “who I am” but I’m clearly some kinda weird goofy wiggly thingy at my core 😅 wiggles to illustrate

Also my thing is like yours, I clear up (or think I do) pretty quick once I’ve started. It’s just terrifying to start anything that isn’t very familiar :-\ I don’t quite even know the rules for that familiarity threshold. Bleh! 'Course, judging by my amazingly high blood pressure when I started getting that treated… could be I just get past a threshold and go from “super anxy” to “so anxy I can’t even feel it any more” 🤷 Is weird. Am weird. extra shrug to illustrate very-shrugness

I’ve been playing a lot of Space Empires IV 😅 Am gonna keep trying stuff. May have another pass at my Itch library. I’m just kinda missing Elder Scrolls specifically, I guess, and though I could play Daggerfall and/or Morrowind, they just make me miss ESO 😅 Maybe I’ll try anyway. scritches at imaginary itch 😟

I don’t even know if the ancient attic wiring up here could handle a gaming rig 😅

Also, making calls and going places isn’t just “difficult” for me. I get actually physically ill. Even (somewhat) medicated I can be stuck in the restroom anxing for an hour before going on a two-minute ride down the road to pick up snacks from the local shop. I will put off a simple call, incurring debts or penalties or whatever, for months or years just because I can’t get myself to press the button to call. A lot of people say “Oh, it’s like that for everyone” but it is not. “Everyone hates phones,” people tell me, but few dread them.

…Unless it’s like that for everyone and this world’s even more asinine that I’d realized. Surely there’s no way everyone’s just accepted being terrified constantly. Maybe they have and I’m the only rational person on Earth, baffled that the people around me think panic is normal and I’m weird for not accepting that 🤔 😮‍💨

wobbles away mumbling

What a weird comment. What do IT departments do if everything “just works?” Also, this isn’t a company. This is one random person saying Linux is bad for home users and always will be because they had one bad experience. Bug reports and actual requests for help are productive. “It didn’t work for me so it’s crap” is not. If some people having bad experiences doomed an OS then Windows would’ve died by now.

I’m literally asking people to prefer using us for tech support over dropping our nth rant this week about how Linux is crap because it upset them.

Also, we get every “it doesn’t work!!!” rant but few “Oh wow, it works just fine!” posts. Who wants to work on improving the “everyman” experience when they won’t be paid for it and the appreciation they get will be an email or two of thanks and people still insisting that Linux will always be crap because of every single thing they didn’t fix?

[Kinda rant] Knowing that those people are giving special treatment to some other OS… or rather, I suppose they’re giving special treatment to Linux. It’s the “hard” one, the “rough” one. If your wifi doesn’t work in Linux it’s because Linux is crap. If it doesn’t work in Windows it’s because of literally anything but Windows. Could be solar flares or Canadian government mind control waves or something. Not precious Microsoft Windows, though. Everything works on that! (Except when it doesn’t, then I get called because I’m the local “computer whiz” or, for one summer, a computer repair tech critter… with that little experience in the role I still saw drivers flaking out and taking down Windows systems)

Anyway, what do we get from “Linux will never be mainstream because my wifi doesn’t work” or any other “Shut up about your stupid crappy OS” type thing that we don’t get from a more cooperative approach? A bug report, or a request for help, or just “here are my experiences?” I suppose what I’m getting at is…

tl;dr: Bashing is useless and annoying, nothing is permanently crap because one person had a bad experience. …Especially when another person had a bad experience with any available alternative. Sharing is sharing but “It sucks!” n times per week is discouraging and counterproductive.

Thankies! Calling and going are hugely difficult for me so finding and setting up with a new one is gonna be rough. … If I can even bring myself to do it :-\ Bleeegh!

Can’t play ESO because I’ve only got my laptop and it just cannot run the game playably. Had to leave my (rather old but still vaguely capable) gaming box when I fled a few months ago. wobble Something that makes it even worse is knowing I could easily lose interest instantly upon loading the game back up 😅 Something I’ve put a lot of time into tends to fail to hold interest no matter how much I feel like I’ll love getting back into it, once I’ve left it. … I lose interest pretty quickly, unfortunately. Have to have new ways of doing things or I have no interest in doing them even if they’re new things. Finishing games is hard for me because there’s usually no growing or (mechanical) learning left to do at the end :-\

Happy birthday! wiggles happy-wishily!

Bleeeh 🤷 Really wishing I could play certain games. Am missing ESO really hard latelish 😅 Money concerns getting real nasty. Bills piling up upon themselves. Local cash assistance stuff has been unhelpful and I don’t know what to do about that. Finally got a therapist… who seems to be just kinda going through paperwork with nothing to say of her own and no actually listening/talking to me. Just, y’know, filling out forms kinda stuff. For hours at a time @.@ Idunno if it’s really supposed to be like this for the first several appointments but I just feel like I’m not going to get any actual help from her. I think my way forward right now is to get onto SSI and see a psychiatrist and a therapist who’s actually good for me, but I’m kinda afraid to say any of that to her (and make myself look like I’m just looking for free money or something, and… Idunno just vibes-wise, I guess, I feel like she’s not exactly eager to help) and don’t know what else to do 🤷 :-\ So I’m just kinda stuck in this “Well, now what?” spot trying not to think about how unlikely it is that I’ll be able to escape more awful messness. Even having debt collectors to look forward to sounds like torture, given some of my problems.

Bleh. Very bleh! Double bleh with an ugh on top. Also maybe a little grr. frusses noisily, then skitters into a nearby cloud 😶‍🌫️

Edit: Oh, and I’ve got some kinda spot like I oopsed up a rib or something and it hurts a lot when I sneeze D: Also hurts when I move some ways. Unfun!

Maybe constructive communication courses should be mandatory worldwide if something that amounts to “Your stupid OS doesn’t work for me so it’s never going to work for anyone [who isn’t a nerd with infinite spare time to fix it all’ the time]!” is how people think to ask for help.

My point being, this isn’t a request for help. This is yet another nuisance post by someone who’s come to punish “the Linux community” for some problem they had. It’s unproductive, unamusing, inflammatory, and on top of all’ that it’s redundant: we get this crap often.

Perkele!

Hateful assholes running the place over there I guess >:| And I used to like that place, despite their best efforts to convince me not to! I’ll just pick a different place that uses a language I like. Let’s seee… 👾 🦹 👿 💩🤡 🔍🤔 … Yeah maybe I should pick a new language to like v.v

[Goofy reference to goofy thing https://www.gnu.org/fun/jokes/ed-msg.en.html ] Something tells me that cal is the standard text-based calendar 😅

There’s also free, easy access to a major open source OS and its devs! … Maybe it’s just wishful thinking that they’ll be able to kang a bunch of useful stuff off’ Linux 😅 Useful design structures or something, despite the different overall kernel design.

I don’t even like Rust, I just like new things 😅 Am excited to see where, if anywhere, it goes. Will be glad to see some success getting past C. … Which I don’t dislike; I just like new things 😁 I hope and expect that good comes of Redox regardless of its success, which definitely is a possibility.

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Changed it 🤷 I’ve no idea why I decided to abbreviate there at all.

If corporations are to be considered people they should have to have shins or something to kick them in!

Am tired of hearing about Nintendo attacking everyone who even thinks about fun outside of their discrete products.

I think I’m using this right…? 😸

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Frussy. Gotta bus over to an appointment to get my head checked @.@ Maybe that critter can help me get on a cash assistance program. She tried to, but they just (eventually) sent me three copies of a rejection thing, dated a week previous to when I got them. This crap is all very mysterious and cryptic and quiet. It’s just, struggle up the ability to send in an app in the first place, then hurry up and wait for a week or a month and maybe finally get something in the mail from like a week previous saying I’ve got two days (from a week previous) to settle some crap, or whatever. Or it just says nothing and I’m loster than before. Ugh. I’d like to be able to buy soap and maybe even pay bills, which this thing should let me do but it takes ages for anyone to even tell me anything and then I get that sorted and it’s just… …
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>:(

Anyway, if I survive not paying my bills maybe I can get some head-meds to make life livable. I hate being stuck in this horrible hunam hellhole world v.v wobbles frussily

Other than that I guess I’m fine 🤷 Anxing over going out makes everything 😬 COVID stuff clearing up, I think. COVID is lots of fun and I recommend it only to critters who enjoy maximum fun nodnod 🙃 Am playing Space Empires IV, an ancient space 4X game. Can’t fit or run much on this laptop. wobble Uhhmmmm… stuff, Idunno. Head’s all weird, honestly. I’m not sure it’s accepted that I’m even here. Sometimes I wake up and think I’m not. Sometimes I feel like I need to process things that I just can’t because I’m afraid I can’t actually be here, can’t trust anything or anyone. Like I start to think of this place as a kind of home and bam, something goes horribly wrong. … I’m rambling and I don’t even know why 😅 Uhhh anyway there are lots of games I suddenly miss now that I can’t play them. That’s tons of fun :| I brought some random little bits with me, for the projecty computery thingy I wanted to build 😅 Just found some knobs I was gonna use. Didn’t bring the pots, just the knobs for them. Didn’t bring my lil air filter. Oh, noisy bikes. There are tons of noisy bikes in this town @.@ They drive right by my window 😅

Okay I’ll stop yapping now. … I haven’t been talking much so I guess I kinda just blurted out a ton of crap 😅 “Solitary, poor, nasty, brutish, and short” springs to mind, thinking of my life. Odd reference to make there but oh well 🤷 skitters away, hides under a something

All(ium) Cepas Are Bastards? 🤔 😅

I’m taking this as an opportunity to illuminate issues with particular games, since… well, play on easy if you wanna, naturally. So, for my recommendation: If you don’t use the mod that makes all weapons very dangerous, Mass Effect Andromeda. Without a mod to speed it up a lot, every fight becomes ages of tedium. There’s one weapon that can be made any good and even that doesn’t make fights bearable. You’re basically sitting for like ten minutes at a time hosing down foes with off-brand Super Soakers until they get frustrated and leave. It’s quite bad. Just play it on easy. Not just easy, the easiest easy. Whatever the lowest difficulty is, pick that one. There’s just no point in anything higher unless you’ve got infinite patience. And ammo. Bleeegh.

So, generally I play things on easier difficulties when I feel like anything higher will get tedious rather than interesting. The Mass Effect trilogy, I play on the maximum difficulty because that adds a bunch of mechanics that give me more to work around. Fighting armoured enemies should be done differently from fights against shielded enemies, that sort of thing. Enemies become more dangerous when they’re not shut down so there’s that encouragement to get them figured out before they bring out the scary attacks. Some games just increase health amounts, which… okay, just shoot them more? 😴 Boring.

tl;dr: Games like Mass Effect Andromeda where difficulty settings only increase tedium. Am never gonna want to crank up the tedium setting.