So I got into organic farming. I bought an expensive earth cutter and actually got to rent a farming plot - about 100 m2. All that was last year. I still have that farming plot but to keep it, I have to keep paying for it as well as actually be there and care for crops. I still want to do it but I just can’t bring myself to do it? And WTF do I do with the earth cutter? I live in a flat in the city ROFL

I also recently got into game development. I actually dove right into the basics and actually began writing code and functions that work for game prototypes. As in not only did I first follow tutorials, but I made my own shit by just looking up documentation. I still want to do it, but… IDK, I just need a hook to go back but I just won’t? And it saddens me, I really want to continue on some ideas I have but its too much.

GAAAH.

And I have a carpenter’s work bench coming soon and all these projects I want to do. But WTF will I do.

  • CoelacanthEnglish
    8·
    3 days ago

    I don’t have an answer for you, but I do have some sympathy. I know the struggle of never being able to stick with a hyperfocus exactly and it fucking sucks. If I was able to maintain interest in something for more than a month or whatever I’d be so much happier, and maybe also actually decent at something.

    • orize@lemmy.dbzer0.comOPEnglish
      31·
      3 days ago

      Thank you for your support.

      What are some things that still stuck with you? Anything you came back to or that you held for a longer time that you enjoy doing?

      • CoelacanthEnglish
        5·
        3 days ago

        I don’t think anything has actually stuck with me. That’s the whole problem really. I’ve maintained interest for various lengths of time but once I drop something it’s so hard to pick the interest up again. Off the top of my head I can’t think of a single example of being able to return to a previous hyperfocus and achieve the same level of obsession as when I was initially hyperfocused on it.

        The one thing I’ve learned in terms of maintaining focus though is to never “look away”. Don’t tempt your attention with other things, and keep doing the thing every single day. If I go two days or more without engaging in it I risk dropping it, that’s the extent of my attention span I guess. If I’m not keeping it constantly in my forebrain I lose interest so quickly. So I guess that’s some advice? Not that I’ve managed to follow it myself, mind.